I was miserable for six years.
Hearing the word menopause, still makes me cringe. It reminds me of all the pain, sleepless nights, and mood swings I endured for six long years.
When I was younger, I thought having a period every single month was bad, except when I was pregnant with my three children. But going through menopause was much worse.
You often hear people making light of this “change” your body goes through, but most of those people are not the women who have gone or are going through it.
It changes who are you and at times I felt like I was going insane. You can’t fully explain what is happening to you, and the symptoms are absolute hell.
I couldn’t sleep and the night sweats were so bad, that every inch of my body perspired. It felt like my body was on fire and there wasn’t anything I could do to stop it. Even my pajamas irritated my skin and they actually hurt.
It was a constant battle of taking my clothes off to cool down, but then getting cold and putting them back on only to get hot again.
It was all night, every night.
I couldn’t sleep, so I would get extremely cranky during the day and that’s where my mood swings took over.
I finally decided to go to the doctor and was prescribed an antidepressant, which helped, but it wasn’t a cure. If I forgot to take my medication one day, all the symptoms would start again.
I was on the medication for six years and had to be weaned off because the doctor said it was too long to be continually medicated that way.
The worst of menopause is now behind me, and most of the “change” is over. But I will say that our families need to continue to support us through the changes in our lives and be considerate of our different emotions and feelings we may go through.