It's been a rough few days. I think Sophia has acid reflux like Zoey did and it's been a battle. Zoey has been herself, which, let's face it, is a daily challenge to see just how insane she can make me.
Last night I had the worst headache ever, I thought my head was going to explode. But, after a few hours I was able to fall asleep. This morning when Sophia woke up to feed, I laid her down when she was done and she fell asleep. I heard Zoey playing in her room, she sounded like she was doing alright. So, I turned the TV on and watched a little while I took a few minutes to myself to relax. After all, it's not like my kids were in distress...but I was. And, to my surprise, the universe did not punish me for taking a little bit of a much needed break.
Sometimes I don't know what to do. Just because I have a vagina doesn't mean I am gifted with all-knowledge of motherhood or that I love it every single minute of every day. Sometimes I wanna throw my hands up in the air, wave a white flag and surrender. It just seems easier to give up. But we all know that nothing easy is ever worth it. That's why, for the most part, I welcome the challenges my children throw at me. Because they're worth it. And, sure, things are hard right now, but it won't be like this forever. I have to appreciate the fact that right now at least my daughter is into Wreck-It Ralph and Frozen instead of Miley Cyrus and boy bands.